The Fish
is chopped
a circle of fleshy pink shards
surrounded by metallic black olives,
artichoke hearts, and cherry tomatoes
the fish
breaks from black shells
dancing with the smell of parmesan and Dove soap in the kitchen
twirling around a pink speckled tabletop with a chrome edge
and chairs, their bases curved underneath,
mimic the chubby legs that wave back and forth waiting for
the fish
breaded and fried
oregano parsley and a lemon wedge
artfully arranged in crisp tentacled mounds
broken apart by tiny fingers that snatch at the golden rings
the fish
simmering in the recipe from the old country
clam shells clang against the side while
sauce bubbles and splatters in a dented dull silver pot
voices rise in the dining room next door, calling for
the fish
white and steaming, bloated with breading
tied together by white strings and a single toothpick
pungent and fat overflowing from their china
Tiny cheeks redden matching the sauce in the humid room
perspiration drips down the windows catching
the reflected streetlamps white and silver against the black Passaic sky
the fish
submerged in gravy
lowered into china bowls
small pink squares stick to threads of spaghetti
slurbed up into hungry mouths
fare la scarpetta with bread that breaks apart
soggy and heavy with butter and red sauce and
the fish
* * *
Gardenia (For Grandma Bea)
She loved me first
the oldest and the youngest
joy through the antiseptic hallways
running
white sneakers colliding with pristine floors
shout from the rooftops
to the masses that the new
She is here
Stocking feet slide
ballet dancing over hardwood floors
curtseying to generations
(the hand carved couch, the Lladro Madonna)
Abracadabra and broccoli vanished from the bone china
reappearing years later
compost in the kitchen plants
Genesis of a Christmas tradition
Bubbling crimson sauces
witch's brew of oregano basil and bright red orbs
this is how you saute like Non-Non
this is how you mince like Aunt Glore
But for dessert
The secret no one else knows
guarded
high in the castle of her memory
moat and unicorns optional
Image of a shrinking giantess
fermenting in the waning sun
eyesight worn on
white dresses and pink scalloped edges
patchwork quilt for the wedding day
and everything with the same signature
Made With Love
Frost creeps in on hot
flashes
of fur coats, gold jewelry, and perfume
Petals curling as they succumb to the
winter moon's embrace
last of the great matriarchs
bows quietly with the grace
of a queen
The second, Gardenia, I wrote several years ago about my Grandma Bea (now affectionately known as "GG" by my daughters). She has dementia, yet she still knows us most of the time (I've been called my mother, sister, and even daughter's names over the years), and most of the things I wrote about in here are instances she would recall with a smile.